HALF TERM!

This is the best thing ever, because when we have half term, everything will be half price. isn't it amazing? Well, do have some plan for this holiday--->

1. going London tomorrow which is 26th of October.  (i wish i can buy my Broccoli & zara basic bag) pls?

2.Going out with Ciarra at Thursday, but i call her Bubble which is her nickname. duhhhh~~ Gonna have some fun with her with taking picture like mad. =DD

3. Shopping at City Center with Tanny, Abi, Izzy and someone else, and tanny gonna show me the coat that cost 90+ pounds. (wow!!! looking forward to see that coat) AHA.

Well, better hope that i have time for me to do revision,, Math test on November and course work of English about Romeo and Juliet. Well, i have no idea what i have to write. So, this gonna be a tough week as well.

=))

fucking mad!

13th October .

I was in EAL for the first lessons, when i get into class Ms G say she have a word with me after the lessons. Then i said, okay! After that, we have to copy something at the board and she blocked me so i wanna copy other people's one but then she get mad suddenly tell me to get out of the class.
 =.=


I was like WHAT!? Then i still go out, later she came out from the class and said to me that i will never ever lend people's book to copy, i can ask for her to move away, she said i'm distracting people! WHAT THE FUCK! she is so fucking mad and said to me i can speak really well but no good in writing and she said some of the teachers told her about this. She is so mad and she scolded me and i don't know why?!

I've only been here for 2 months, what she want me to get a good grade in english test?  like A*?
what the fuck seriously, nobody treated me like this before. Not when i dun have a dad , not when my mum left me , not when i dun even have a family.

WEIRD

I have a really good life here, i got friends that are different colours and  different country. Michelle still told me to make many 'ang mo' guy friends but i just realize that I never talk to them. I mean guy, of course they're some but i didn't talk to them at all or most of the time. I think i'm okay with it. IS that okay?

Everyday i was so super excited to go to school, I feel really happy. But sometimes i felt that, this is SO WRONG & IT DUN SUPPOSE TO HAPPEN. I dun deserve it.

I feel like everything is just a dream, it won't come true. I felt really weird lately, i don't know why,
is just everything is going the wrong way.

I dun like to be too happy and i dun dare to enjoy my life, is like a nightmare to me. Is like when you're enjoying and really really happy, it suddenly take everything you have and want you to go through with it.

I'm trying really hard to no have this feeling but is so scary.



I though i was a very happy girl with a smile on my face, but i realize that actually i do not care what happen around me, i dun give a shit about them. I just want my life to be as simple as they can.